Growing up as a child, I loved going to church. I considered myself as an ambassador to the lord. But as timed passed by I grew up, got older and became more and more delinquent, drifted away from the Lord. I can’t clearly remember if it were peer pressure or was it the constant ridicule . Just the fact that I attended church appeared as a mockery to them. With nothing left to do I would hide every Sunday from my mother, just so I would stay away from God’s house. In my mind, I absolutely knew what I was doing was wrong. But as a result of the embarrassment I felt from my peers this was the solution to my problem. I was young and naive. Over the past years I have stayed away, and felt really low about being away for so long. As he said “If you are ashamed of me, then I will be ashamed of you also”. It is definitely not that I am ashamed of him but that I have reasonably good reasons for staying away up to this day.
I focus on his words “Except a man be born again, he cannot enter into the gates of heaven”, knowing that I am a sinner but in my heart I know that I try. And just knowing that I make an attempt, is without a doubt understanding. He is a forgiving God and he said he will always forgive us for our wrong deeds.
In heart and in truth I do believe in the Lord, no matter how long I have turned my back against his house, I strongly believe that I am not obligated to sit in a church to give praise to him. In theory I stay away, churches are not what they used to be, they are filled with wicked and evil people who are impostors in my eyes. They capitalize the name of God to fulfill their wants and their needs in a profitable manner to themselves alone. BLASPHEMY I SAY!!!
Christians of this day are gossipers, this is the reason they look forward attending Sunday morning service. Not to praise him, not to ask him for forgiveness, not to ask for a solution to their problems but simply to criticize other people and quietly mumble about the pastor’s financial problems, or the sister’s daughter is fornicating and she is trying to advise the younger females of the congregation to do otherwise. They never stop to think that the sister does not make the decisions for her daughter, and she has presumably tried to preach what was right and guide her daughter in the right direction. Few in this world are true Christians, those who are, rightfully earned my honor and admiration.
This is one of the reasons why I distant myself from church; it is not that I do not love God. Because I do! I thank him every day for the wonderful blessings he has directed upon my life. For I know they are mine to keep and I highly appreciate every single one. I will not be forced to worship him nor acknowledge him because someone said so. I will do so because I believe and only because I believe. It is not a trend that I will follow because people are doing it and I know nothing about it but want to fit in.NO!!! I refuse to do it that way; I will not attend church because YOU SAID SO, or because YOU THINK it will make me a better person. Because only I know what will make me a better person and what change will make my life better.
Another reason I convey, Christians of today go to church because other people think it is the right thing to do. It is not the right thing to do unless you are doing it out of heart, out of your love for God. Don’t make a change in your life because someone else said that you are living amiss. Their life is not better than yours, yet they discriminate and try to make alterations to what is none of their business.
SO AS MY BEGINNING: I AM FREE TO SAY THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS SO THAT ONE’S EYES CAN BE OPENED AND ONE CAN SEE THINGS FROM A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE.
DO IT BECAUSE YOU WANT TO AND FOR YOURSELF. NOT FOR THE SAKE OF ANYONE ELSE
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