by Alisa

never thought that losing someone so close would kill you inside. Well, it does. I was out with my brother and his friends for my B day, and we were having a good time since i never get to see him cause (he doesn´t live with us anymore). HE told me to stay with his friends so he can go get something to eat with our cousin, but i didn´t want him to leave like if i knew sotin bad was gonna happen. He gave me the keys to the car and said "if i don´t get back in 10 min then get busta to drive you home". After i saw him walk away i felt like my life was ending, so i went after him cause i knew something wasn´t right. When i got there i saw my brother and my cousin eating but my bro was looking at a guy and saying "what the f**k you looking at son", and i ran inside cause i didn´t want him to fight with me being there. When they finished and went outside the guys came after us and one of them stabbed my brother on the side of his heart, and then when he fell that same guy went after my cousin and said to him " you see what happens when u don´t have my money on time" and started stabbing him in the back about 16
times. All I could do was grab my brother and hold him close to me screaming for someone to call the 911, but no one was around i felt like my whole world was caving in on me. I look at him and said everything was gonna be ok that he better not leave me, all he said was " baby gurl u know I love you with all my heart and u will always be my favorite lil sister, just hold on to me and i will never leave you." I held on talking to him telling him that I loved him, and that we can do all the things he said we would do. But, he told me to give him a kiss and i did. After that all I knew was that my brother was gone, he laid in my arms like if he was sleeping but he wasn´t. I never knew that ALLAH could take someone u loved so much and never give them back, I felt like my whole life was over cause i had no one to be there for me anymore, to teach me things. I have two other brothers but i never talk to them, cause there´re not the same. I will never forget him, his face, or his laugh he will always be in my heart Always-n-Foreva. After visiting my cousin in the hospital I found out that he owed that guy money from selling, and that my cousin was a bigg dealer. I never forgave my cousin for what he did to have my brother taken away from me, and for how it killed me inside till this day.

R.I.P Juan