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My heart is aching. Crying for something more..something bigger. But you refuse to let me go.

I can’t breath. You’re suffocating me.
Mind can’t stop reasoning and arguing. Trying to talk itself into this. That it’s okay. That everything is okay.

But it’s not. I need to get away, to go away. From this, from you. Away from the same old you and me. I’m not happy anymore.

And everytime I try to make you understand that you talk to me like I’m making a bad decision. Like I’m screwing up my life.

And I believe you.

I tell myself that I am strong. Independent.
But I am not. Not when I’m with you.
When I’m with you I’m weak and pathetic.
When I’m with you I settle for things that aren’t good enough.
I’m tired of this. Of us. Of me. I don’t want it anymore.